Had no intention of making such a long pause from my blogging, I think I said somewhere in a recent blogpost that I would try and blog more… 😉

Well, now that didn't happen so bare with me!

 

Lots of personal things have happened, big time stuff for me, and hard time too. Still tough and will be for a while, but after this shit …I hope I'm in for some good times!

 

You who have read my blog for a looooong time know I struggle with health issues, and what can I say …I still do…I still struggle…I search…and haven't been well yet.

 

I have now found out that I have Hashimotos Thyroiditis, and it's an autoimmune disease that attacks my own thyroid, and if not treated as it should it soon comes new autoimmune diseases… And so it have…it now attacks my stomach as well…So the uphills have been no fun…

 

So I started to sew (read try) to keep mind occupied. Thought I was going crazy! I started to sew on my Road To Recovery… there were bumps daily in my life…some huge ones..some smaller ups and downs… Days better…days worse… It was still bumps…

 

So I just sewed together pieces from scraps, cut out a bump and appliquéd it…

 

But not even that did go as I wanted, was even hard to pick up sewing. Slow mind, always tired, pains, the stress, the always there mad heartbeats and heart dunks driving me crazy. And the non existing sleep..two hours a night ain't good and this have been going on for quite a while… Was diagnosed with thyroid problems 2011…just recently I found out myself about the Hashimotos … Thank goodness I am stubborn!

 

Let's say that during all this my relationship with my partner suffered, and he couldn't understand all this, did not want either, and who can blame him ..I didn't either.

 

This spring it ended up with a separation and I have now moved to my own place.

A happy place of my own…will show pics later…

Have now lived here for about two months and I love my place but know I can't stay here forever which breaks my heart …it's too expensive.

 

With the move I also decided to do something about my diseases… Can't wait for something to happen..and Docs to rule my life…so I have contacted a Functional Medicine Nutritionist …and we have now started the treatment.

 

Will be an interesting journey..I hope..have had setbacks already since my body is so sensitive to changes it reacts to everything…but I hope that with a bit of positivity and some sunshine I will improve this summer!

 

Hashimotos really sucks!

 

Need to learn to love myself again and do the things I love… Will try my best every day… And even challenge myself with some sewing… Got a tip yesterday from The Healing Hashimotos Summit…and the speaker Stacey Robbins .. To do 100 days of Gong … This is an explanation from her blog:

 

A Gong in Chinese is a designated amount of time that you allot to perform a specific task daily. For example, knowing that it takes at least 90 days for a particular good habit to “burn into” your nervous system, the 100 Day Gong is the most appropriate length to practice. This means that we pick a particular practice (or set of practices) and designate them as our Gong and we diligently practice them every day for 100 days without fail. This means that if you miss a day, even if its day 99, you start over. Not only does this build resolve, it forces us to wake up and pay attention to our day-to-day routines. It is incredibly painful when you miss day 46, for instance, and have to start over. At first you try to make excuses to yourself about how it was OK and how you’ll just keep going, but then, a deal is a deal…you start over. Next round, you pay attention! It is a wonderful way of not only building focus and determination, but also to ensure that you train regularly. It is a dedicated act of self-love that snaps you out of your daily trance and brings the light of awareness to your consciousness. The more we practice, the more we wake up and the better off we are.

 

And a thought got into me..maybe I can do something sewing related for five minutes per day …or maybe do that mindfulness more frequent … In some way I will try!

 

Have a lot of bumps to sew! As I said didn't come far..and this is how far I have gotten until this day..it's a work in progress and have no idea whatsoever on what will become of this..

It's just a Road to Recovery…